I wrote about my dog a fair amount in the early days of this blog. He was a terror then, leaving a path of destruction whenever we left the room.
Nothing escaped his jaws, it certainly didn't have to be edible, and since this is a baseball card blog, you read about the times he destroyed some baseball cards.
He even went through some Christmas presents under the tree one year and tore out some card packs with his teeth.
As the years went by, Dodger calmed down -- relatively speaking as he had beagle in his blood -- and was no longer a threat to cards. Just the other day last week, I happened to drop a couple of cards into his bed where he was sleeping without knowing I did it. I came back hours later to find them right where I dropped them, completely untouched.
Dodger could barely see by then and his hearing was just as bad. He'd pace relentlessly even though his legs were wobbly and the health problems that he had lived with for years grew worse and more dire.
On Sunday, Mother's Day, the day he was born 14 years ago, we knew he was fading fast. We stayed up with him all night. And Monday morning, as my wife was on the phone making an appointment for him to be put to sleep, he passed in his bed, where he would often sit or sleep as I wrote blog posts.
Dodger was a farm dog. We got him at the urging of my daughter who had just turned 10 at the time, one month before I started reading card blogs and four months before I started this blog. I would often measure how old he was by how long I had written the blog.
Dodger was my first dog pet. I think I've mentioned that I didn't grow up with animals, my mother was not an animal person. But I married someone who was. She had a dog, Holly, when I met her. Holly and I got along great. After we got married, we had two different cats, and then Dodger came along.
Now, there's no one. It's my first day with no one in the house in so long, I can't remember when. No one waiting at the door, no one staring at me for dinner time that's two hours away, no one to greet me with the snack ritual when I get home from work late at night, no one to bark at the porch intruders, no one to chase away squirrels (he didn't catch a single one), no one to walk, no one to freak out over thunderstorms. No one to be completely irrational.
As I'm writing this, I feel his presence in the next room, but I look over and nothing's there. It's weird.
It's got to be weirder for my wife, who has had pets all her life. Yet, she has insisted that this is the last pet. She said that long before Dodger passed, and part of me doesn't believe it, but this really could be it. I don't know how I feel. I sort of like it. But I sort of don't.
Anyway, I was going to show some card pictures of dogs, but I've done some of that before, and I'm not really feeling it. Here are a couple more photos of my dog instead:
He was a good boy.
Going back to when he used to destroy cards, here are a couple of cards that I've owned since he put his teeth marks in them many years ago:
They don't look too bad, just a few love bites, but there have been many a time I've shuffled through my shoeboxes looking for cards to trade and saw these two and thought, "can't trade those."
The status of those cards changed yesterday. I don't want to trade them now and they'll be getting a place of honor.
Miss him. We picked a good one.
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I tried to get another one a year and a half later, but it wasn't the right match. Haven't tried since and I don't think I will until I retire. Nobody is at home otherwise, and I've become lazy and unwilling to get up earlier for walks. I should still go on afternoon ones, but I haven't forced myself to do that either.
Your wife might say that's it, but it may get too quiet for either of you after a while...just sayin'
September 2020, we lost Willow, also to cancer. Then in November, we lost my in-laws dog, leaving us a household pack of 2. We picked up our first Australian Shpeherd in December as our oldest was now 15 going on 16 and didn't want Piper to be alone when Kaylee left us. That came in February, 2021 on President's day.
Shortly after we learned Piper has a mass on her liver! We then scrambled to find a playmate for Billie, the Aussie, picking up Loki, another Aussie, last August. Piper defied the odds and finally left us right before last Thanksgiving. We are now a house pack of two, and though the house is a lot quieter these days, I can't picture not having fur-kids around.
As I sit here, currently away from the states for the next 5 weeks in Poland for work, I'm getting my puppy fix where ever I can for now.
I know where you are at right now, and tearing up as I type. I have had and lost 7 dogs now and still find it the best bargains I've made. In return for a little food, water, and a place to lay their heads, they give us their all, unconditionally. Yes, they take a peice of us with them when they go, but they live on inside us.
Take care of your self my friend. This pain will fade, but the memories will last forever.
Richard
I have found that that each loss leaves a hole in my heart that is hard to fill except by welcoming another in. I don't know if it works like that for everyone, but if it does for you, and you do get another dog, I hope you'll name him Tommy Lasagna.